The only ways I have found to break the terrible cycle of:
1) crank up the music
2) sing and dance while I work
3) laugh at myself, or
4) just do, don’t think
Recently, when my phone had been silent for a while, I was surprised by the thought, “I guess no one loves me.” I urgently changed that path by picking up the phone to remind others that I loved them.
No more silence.
In that same week, my email box was empty of substantial mail and the thought crossed my mind, “I guess no one needs my services.” I quickly made a U-turn by initiating contact with people who might need me but were busy or something.
The inbox filled up within the hour.
I have found this simple lesson to have implications anytime I feel crazy about what I need.
Thanks, Willa Cather, for your inspiration to get on with living yesterday when a “boulder” dropped into the middle of my schedule. My body and mind wanted to writhe with rejection and condemnation of the obstacle. After holding myself accountable for 1,2,&3 below, I successfully used my energy for living instead of dying.
Maybe it was from my steady childhood diet of horror movies, but somehow I became one of the biggest chickens of all time.
To counteract these default settings, I have learned to review a mental “tape” of my bold-people heroes when in high-stake environments.
If I don’t, you will find me running for cover or whimpering in the corner.
What a difference it has made for me when…
After a botched epidural many years ago, I woke up in an intensive care unit, blind and mentally impaired, with a broken jaw, dislocated shoulders, and massive back injuries, but I woke up. My vision, mind, and body eventually returned. Today, I don’t take color for granted. Or the ability to reason. Or moving without pain.
Or waking up.
– Rachel Joyce in The Music Shop
I wasn’t sure about this book. Now I know.
And the best way to read this book is to listen to each piece of music as it comes into the story. I found myself asking Alexa for Puccini in one breath and Sex Pistols in the next.
I found The Music Shop to be an enlightening journey into ordinary life and into (sometimes unlikely) music that lifts ordinary life into the extraordinary.